Recovery

Forced recovery sucks at the time, but it does work. Two days later of nothing but work and sleep, I am feeling better than i have since my surgery.

I often don't realize how sick, or tired, or mentally strained I am, until i feel better. Then i look back and discover that I wasn't 100%.

I am still not 100%, but I am well on my way.

Today, i actually felt the desire to be on my bike. No, i know, I've been whining about that for about 5 weeks now, but today, I could actually feel my body say "i am ready".  Like when your body breaks into a run, when you aren't even thinking about it.

I need to calm my mind. I wonder sometimes, how many times in my life, my mind has been calm.  I can count on one hand.  External factors still influence me, as i guess they do everyone. 

Brain chemistry can be a real bitch.  I need to wear myself out so much i can't think anymore. I wonder how many others in the world are like that.

To keep my focus, I have signed up for a local rally..the head for the hills. IT's in 1 month from my training start time.  Can i possibly do it? I didn't sign up for the 100k, but the 40. I might only make 20, but a goal, however small, is a goal.

My bucket list item is to cross a state on my bike. One week of pure cycling. It looks like I have made it into the lottery for Ragbrai, and I will get my chance.  And finally, my last biggest goal is to compete in the triple threat in Wichita falls HHH.  I want the wooden trophy. IT will be an utter accomplishment to compete in three things I've never been able to do when i was younger.

Three goals.  Four Months.

Bucket List.

Clear, CAlm Skies.